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第37章 我的姐妹金纳（第3页）

不要抽那多烟，也不要喝那么多酒了！”

然后，我们大笑着相互拥抱在一起。

金纳接着说：“你也是，也不要抽那么多烟，喝那么多酒了！”

我们两个都哭了。

在这两年的美好时光中，她一直是我最好的朋友，我内心深处有一种预感，我再也不会见到金纳了。

金纳刚刚搬到那个地方的时候给我写了一封信，从此以后，就很少写信给我。

大约两年以后，我收到了她的一封信，得知她住在密苏里州，与一个已婚男人有了一个小孩，她说那个男人很爱她。

我为她感到伤心，并且想知道她是否真正找到了非常渴望的爱情。

或者，她真正需要的并不是她自认为想要的。

后来，金纳又给我写了一封信，自那以后，我就再也没有收到她的来信。

我给她写了回信，然而却没有任何音信。

直到今天，我仍然不知道她在哪里，究竟发生了什么事情，是否还活着。

我与金纳就好像双胞胎姐妹，她的离开带走了我身体的一部分，她离开以后，我感觉自己的内心好像被掏空了一块，好似是深处的灵魂被掏走了。

至少从表面上来看，金纳是一个很有生命活力的女孩，从来不为生活忧愁。

我们曾经分享一切，是那么亲密的朋友。

尽管已经过去很多年了，我仍然会经常想起她。

两个不同道路上的年轻女孩一起走向成熟，而且我们熟悉彼此的道路。

金纳欣赏我的全部和我所拥有的一切，她还能使我微笑。

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